Day 5 - There may be trouble ahead

Had real doubts last night whilst tucking into home made chilli - all propointed up mind you! It's the old adage, can I really eat all this? Will certainly find out on Thursday. I've had an excellent day today and didn't give food a thought - unheard of! I even went swimming tonight straight from work, feel completely relaxed and enjoyed fish when I got home. Lots of propoints left so may even enjoy a small wine spritzer later on.

Day 4 - so far so good

Well, I'm now on day 4 of my new food regime.  Things have been going good; I had curry and wine on Friday night, bolognese and a small glass of beer on Saturday and some very nice chicken with onion gravy on Sunday night!! Wow, can I really eat this sort of food and even have a small glass of wine or beer?  I've measured, weighed and propointed my portions using my very handy calculator and according to them, yes I can! and I haven't even managed to get up to my propoint allowance of 37 but average out at about 29.  Life is good, I just hope that I lose a few pounds by weigh-in on Thursday.   The proof as they say will be in the pudding.

Exercise wise, I haven't been doing much lately, mainly due to an op' last summer but I walked to town and back on Saturday and spent a very nice couple of hours with friends swimming on Sunday morning.  I'm even on planning swimming with a work colleague on Tuesday's after work - crikey, I've never been so active, not for a long while.  I have to admit though swimming generally involves swimming then jacuzzi, then sauna or steam room, or both, a bit more swimming and a bit more jacuzzing - have to keep up with the gos' you realise.

So far, so good!

Facing facts!

I have finally plucked up the courage and faced the reality that, yes, I am fat!  I need to lose weight and I need to start feeling better about myself.  I found myself stood on the threshold of my local Weight Watchers class (I've been here before, not this class but another, and am now a lapsed life time member - as the lady on reception very kindly pointed out to me).  Anyway, I got weighed and oh dear god how could I let this happen.  I daren't tell you my weight yet but needless to say, any of you weight watchers out there will understand that I must be quite hefty to be given a  propoints allowance of 37!

I feel quite depressed at the thought of now not being able to have the foods and wine, oh yes you can't forget the wine, that I enjoy an am worried that I won't have the resolve to carry this forward for the many months ahead.

Still, size 12 dress here I come!!!